Religion and the Denial of Mental Health Treatment

Religion and the Denial of Mental Health Treatment

For anyone that knows me personally, they are well aware of my interest in documentaries and docuseries - specifically those related to murders and serial killers. I know, it’s strange. But the human mind has always fascinated me and I like the documentaries and not the murder dramas simply because of the education and knowledge that they bring me through the interviews of forensic psychologists, emergency personnel involved in the investigation, family members of both the victims and the perpetrator, and in some cases, the murderer themselves.

With this also comes my fascination with religions, specifically cults. I think my interest in those mostly comes from the psychology of why someone becomes interested in religion and the mind control that is involved and is basically the determining factor of whether or not said religion is considered a cult. I have studied many of them, some only having a few hundred or only around 1,000 followers, some having nearly 10 million followers. Most of you have likely never heard the majority of them.

Before I go any further, I would like to emphasize the fact that I do not place judgement on anyone who happens to be a follower of the religion I am about to discuss, and any other religions that I may briefly mention. If that is where you happen to find purpose, peace, and happiness, then by all means, please continue. What I am going to discuss are the red flags, concerns, and downright disgust and frustration that I have found during my research and studies. I may refer to them as cults, which some may disagree with. But some may refer to them as their religion or way of faith, which I will disagree with. This article is not meant to start any kind of arguments or debates. It is simply to call out the lack of sympathy for those suffering from mental illness. I have many, many things I would like to say and discuss in regards to the cults that I am going to be acknowledging, but for now, I am going to be focusing on mental illness within said cults/churches.

The one I want to focus on the most, is Scientology.

Scientology has been an interest of mine for several years now. Not because I am interested in their doctrine - quite frankly I am completely appalled and turned off by it. What I am interested in is why so many people choose to follow such a religion and believe it to be true. If you would like me to state other reasons that I find Scientology to be false aside from my disagreement in their belief to not encourage mental health treatment, I would be happy to discuss that privately via email or Facebook messenger, both of which you can find the links to at the bottom of this article.

Scientology - first of all - is the belief that a human is an immortal, spiritual being that is a resident of a physical body. Humans have lived innumerable past lives, and will continue to live innumerable future lives. It is observed in the texts of Scientology that lives preceding the human’s arrival on earth were lived in extraterrestrial cultures.

I have watched many documentaries and series on Scientology, watched countless interviews with past and present Scientology followers - but the one that has seemed to hold my attention the most, is a 2 year old series that is aired on A&E. It is called Leah Remini: Scientology and the Aftermath. For those of you who are not aware, Leah Remini is a famous actress, with her most popular role being that of the female lead role in the hit television show King of Queens years ago. She was a devoted Scientologist for 35 years and used her celebrity platform to promote it and help fund it. Remini ultimately left the church in 2013 and has now set out to, what Remini says to, “share the shocking truth about Scientology.” She uses her personal experiences as her driving force to reveal her experiences as well as past followers’ experiences. She has teamed up with a former high-level Scientology executive Mike Render

The church of Scientology has sent numerous letters to Remini, Render, and A&E in attempts to dispute many of the statements made by Remini, and to get them to discontinue the show and stop airing it. However, Remini is already 3 seasons in deep and there doesn’t seem to be any word of the church of Scientology getting their wish. I admire Remini and Render’s bold and courageous acts to call out what they see as unfit for a church to be promoting and preaching. Remini has on camera boldly stated that these people are bastards for destroying lives and families. I agree 100% and here is why (the following will be a compilation of direct quotes from The Aftermath - which will be cited with the season and episode number - my own personal thoughts or own words, which will not be cited, and direct quotes or statistics from online sources - which will be cited with a number that you can match the link to at the end of this article).

“Scientology promises people that it has the answers to everything, every part of life. Every part of your existence can be analyzed and resolved and made better by Scientology. And clearly the ultimate failure of that is when someone commits suicide. If you are suicidal in the church of Scientology, you actually get in trouble for those feelings. So you’re going to suppress that and hide those feelings if you want to remain in Scientology. So there’s a lot of things that add to people being suicidal in Scientology or depressed in Scientology but they learn very early on to suppress those feelings.” (S2E2)

There is a message board online for ex-Scientologists and family members to meet fellow exes, share experiences, ask questions, and possibly reunite. Someone who was never a member, but her father had interactions at one point, posted this question:

“He told me that my mom called the CoS in Boston and told them my dad was suicidal and asked them for help. She said their response was, ‘Well tell him to kill himself.’ She quickly ended the call. My question is what’s Scientology’s view on someone [that is] depressed/suicidal? Does the above response fit into the belief system? If so, what book/lecture/etc. does that come from?” (1)

A response to her question reads this:

“Scientology does not look kindly on people with depression or who are suicidal. First of all, they do not believe in “mental illness” as a thing, and the best way I can explain the suicide thing is that the training is geared to never have sympathy, (but empathy is okay) and this is difficult to differentiate for most Scientologists since most feelings of this nature are buried deep within their guts. Feeling Vulnerable like this is looked down on, in my experience. There is a thing called “Service Facsimile” and the bit about someone speaking aloud that they feel suicidal would not only make them ineligible for Scientology services, it is seen as that person is purposely using their situation to get attention. Either way, it makes them a hopeless case. Scientology can’t help them. The church wouldn’t take on a case in that condition. They would think that person would be better off killing themselves and starting over again and coming back next lifetime. I was in Scientology for 20 years and had bipolar disorder the entire time, and it got worse as I got older. I had horrible, horrible depressive states. I can’t even describe them they were so awful. Sheer hell. I had to totally hide it. I could not let anyone in Scientology know this was going on. Not even a friend… I’d wait until I could bounce back again, which I could do for very long periods of time. I was resilient. I had no choice. In the cult you have to buck up. Never be a victim. Never feel bad, especially for your own self… You are to set an example… If my brain cooties were pulling me into a black hole and I was letting it affect me, something was wrong with ME… Once I was hit with a physical disability, that’s when everything changed for me. THAT’S when the tables turned.” (1)

Monica Pignotti was a member of Scientology for about 5 years and 9 months. During that time she lived on the sea org--a ship L. Ron Hubbard - the founder of Dianetics and Scientology - used because he could be out at sea where no jurisdiction could reach him. Aboard that ship were only the most elite members who dedicated 365 days to Scientology. Pignotti states something that I can promise you, Scientology likely does not want being discussed. She states:

“Quentin Hubbard, L. Ron Hubbard’s son and a very close friend of mine, committed suicide at the age of 22 because he could see no way out of the trap that he was in. Having been born into Scientology, he could not envision living outside of the cult, but could not stand living in it. It is too late for Quentin. He is gone and no one can undo that the damage that was done to him, but it is not too late for others. If writing this gives someone the insight to get their loved one out of Scientology, then perhaps, my years in Scientology will have served some purpose.” (2)

In the many documentaries that I have watched, I have learned that Scientology does not want the public to know when someone has committed suicide. They have to know that they are leading a cult, because they don’t want the public finding out, because they do not want to get blamed for malice or tried in court for being liable for that person’s suicide. There have been many strange and controversial deaths connected to the CoS. There have also been suicide cover-ups and attempts made to make the situations “lesser than,” like they weren’t that big of a deal.

Scientology’s official website has this to say about this topic:

“Nor do Scientologists believe people should be stigmatized with labels and “treated” with “cures” that have no basis in science and are brutal in the extreme. Through its long and tragic history psychiatry has invented numerous “cures” which eventually proved destructive in the extreme. It is now routine psychiatric practice to label and stigmatize youth with wholesale diagnoses of mental disorders. It is a staggeringly profitable business. But while psychiatrists rake in billions, society receives a new generation of life-long drug addicts and thus still more customers for psychotropic drugs. Today, the marketing of antidepressants has likewise reached nightmarish proportions, and the scenario becomes even more disturbing when one considers the explosively violent episodes such drugs precipitate. Moreover, there is categorically no evidence that diseases such drugs claim to treat even exist which is to say, it’s all an elaborate and deadly hoax. This is not “Scientology belief” or “opinion".” this is fact and this why Scientologists oppose psychiatric abuse.” (3)

So clearly these people have never actually read anything about science and mental health. This is actually Scientology belief and their opinion, because the only thing science backs up, is that these so called “drugs” actually can help cure mental illness. There actually is evidence EVERYWHERE that diseases these “drugs” claim to treat exists. I would just like to say that not everyone who takes medication for their mental health is addicted to it. I for one am not; I take it as prescribed and nothing more. Many, many other people who take their mental health and recovery seriously do the same. Most people, who are addicted to mental health medication, are addicted to benzodiazapines - such as Xanax and Ativan - and they don’t actually need them for mental health reasons, they just say they do and they abuse them instead of taking them as directed. The official website of Scientology goes on to say this:

“Drugs are usually taken to escape from unwanted emotions, pains, or sensations. In Scientology, the real reasons for these unwanted conditions are located and handled so that the individual no longer needs or desires drugs. Drugs dull people and make them less aware. Scientology’s aim is to make people brighter and more aware. Drugs are essential poisons. The degree they are taken determines the effect. A small amount acts as a stimulant. A greater amount acts as a sedative. A large amount acts as a poison and can kill one dead. Drugs also dull one’s sense and affect the mind and spirit so that the person becomes less in control and more the effect of their environment, a very undesirable state. Despite the claims of psychiatrists that drugs are a “cure-all,” at best drugs only mask what is really wrong; at worst drugs cause harm. The real answer is to handle the source of one’s troubles—and that is done through Scientology.” (5)

First of all, if anything, medication has made me MORE aware. I was a zombie without them. I was unable to focus in class during elementary school, I was unable to carry on a lot of functional conversations because I could not stay focused or somehow would tune out the person speaking without meaning to and was unable to control it. ANYONE who felt out of control before they began taking a medication that worked out for them, will tell you that they are now MUCH more in control than they were before they started taking their medication, if of course they take it as directed. I for one can advocate to this. I remember how bad it was before I started medication, or at least found the right one that is. I remember how horrible I felt, how out of control I felt, how I felt like I could not control my actions, words, or impulses. People with bipolar disorder (I don’t have this) are constantly reporting that they feel out of control. That’s what mania does to you; it makes you feel out of control. And any of them who found the right medications, will tell you that they now feel more in control, and that their mania does not dictate their life. No offense, if your psychiatrist is telling you that your medication is a “cure-all,” you need to find yourself a new psychiatrist. Medication alone cannot heal you. Medication is there to HELP you. Medication along with therapy and the proper diet and exercise and finding something that you feel as though you have purpose because of it, and DILIGENTLY working towards your recovery is what is going to be your “cure-all.” I have been seeing the same psychiatrist for almost 10 years and not once has he ever told me that what he was giving me alone was going to cure me. There was a period of time where I wasn’t going to therapy, and he was constantly getting on me about that because of how much it could have helped me much earlier on than it is now. He still is concerned about my diet and lack of exercise, something I am still trying to work on within myself. But I am now DILIGENTLY working towards my recovery and I am making progress ALONG with the help of my medication. Also, AT BEST “drugs” can actually help unmask what is really wrong. I hate calling them drugs, because heroin is a drug, mental health medications that are used properly and not abused are not drugs. Drugs cause harm when they are abused and not used properly.

Along with being against any and all medication, Scientologists also do not believe in therapy/psychotherapy. Instead, the church of Scientology uses what is called Auditing.

“The goal of auditing is to restore beingness and ability. This is accomplished by: (1) helping individuals rid themselves of any spiritual disabilities; (2) increasing spiritual abilities. Obviously, both are necessary for an individual to achieve his full spiritual potential. Auditing, then, deletes life’s painful experiences and addresses and improves one’s ability to confront and handle the factors in his life. Through auditing one is able to look at one’s own existence and improve one’s ability to confront what one is and where one is. There are vast differences between the technology of auditing, a religious practice, or other practices. There is no use of hypnosis, trance techniques or drugs during auditing. The person being audited is completely aware of everything that happens. Auditing is precise, thoroughly codified, and has exact procedures. A person receiving auditing is called a preclear—meaning “a person not yet clear.” A preclear is someone who, through auditing, is finding out about themselves and life. Auditing uses processes—exact sets of questions asked or directions given by an auditor to help a person locate areas of spiritual distress, find out things about themselves and improve their condition. (4)

They make auditing out to be something wonderful. It honestly sounds a lot like therapy. I would believe that it could possibly be something wonderful, if I hadn’t watched all of the documentaries that I have. In several, people have reported that during auditing sessions, they have admitted to their spiritual upset being sexual abuse allegations that they experienced within the church. But then being forced into denying the allegations repeatedly until they, “forget about them,” so that they do not go to authorities. The first thing I think of when I hear about auditing is eye movement desensitization and reprocessing that is used in psychotherapy for patients specifically suffering from trauma. It is the only trauma therapy that I have ever heard of that does not use talk or writing therapy as their way of working through it. However, even after having EMDR explained to me, I was told that I am not going to be able to forget about the trauma, likely ever. But I will be able to work through it and move on. I have never scientifically heard of anyone being able to just “forget about” their trauma. And that is exactly why I do not believe this kind of auditing technique to be of any real use.

Something else that I have also heard about in documentaries is people or people that they know who were on psychiatric medication before entering into Scientology, were taken off of said medications. Although, it is never done properly. With any kind of psychiatric medication, you are instructed to wean yourself off of the medication so that you do not experience withdrawal symptoms. I have done it improperly before, and have regretted every minute of it. I can’t even begin to imagine what kind of withdraws other people go through when they do not properly wean themselves off of more powerful medications for more severe mental health cases. And that is exactly what the church of Scientology is reported to do.

Cited from Remini’s series in season 2 episode 2, Marie Bilheimer was interviewed by Remini and Rinder. She was married to a fellow Scientologist who ended up hanging himself. The church demanded and required her to not speak to anyone about it. She states, “I got to the point where I couldn’t take it anymore, I couldn’t try to be on post, I couldn’t have people continuing to look at me going what’s wrong with this person and not being able to communicate what had happened.” She was asked if she wanted to leave post, and was told that if she wanted to, it was totally okay. Remini points out that, “She didn’t want you to be upset, because it would cause a problem for the church.” Bilheimer agreed and says, “I was a situation.” Remini responds with, “Right so now they see you as a problem.” Bilheimer was later interrogated and pushed to believe that her husband killed himself because of problems that he had caused and not because of whatever issues within the church that caused him to get to that point, such as making him feel trapped there or didn’t feel like he had anywhere to turn to. The church painted her husband out to be a bad person and was wrong for killing himself, and that he was a bad person altogether, and his whole life, what he was doing was wrong. He ended up killing himself because he had a court hearing coming up for charges for prostituting, which led Bilheimer to possibly believe that he might have been struggling with his sexuality. But that would ultimately lead to him being disconnected from the church, because that was not allowed. Remini explains that they didn’t have any sort of compassion for Bilheimer’s husband. She states that the church of Scientology is not a compassionate one. (S2E2)

Film writer and producer Paul Haggis has a daughter named Lauren that Remini and Rinder interviewed as well because one of her good childhood friends Tayler committed suicide after not receiving proper mental health treatment. Lauren remembers that via Facebook, it seemed as though Tayler was doing well, she was into art and makeup, as well as music and singing. Lauren states that they didn’t keep much contact after a while, but based on Tayler’s posts, she seemed to be doing well. Tayler was originally a very proud and dedicated Scientologist. But in 2013, a boyfriend had broken up with her and was very negative and nasty towards her; starting rumors and breaking down Tayler’s character. She was dealing with a lot of emotional stress and felt bullied within the church, according to Lauren. Tayler tried many times to address these issues with the people higher up within the church. She was getting nowhere with it, because no one was doing anything about it. At that point Lauren states that Tayler decided to go public about it on Facebook, something that the church of Scientology does not want anyone to be doing if it has anything to do with anything negatively associated with them. Tayler stated on her Facebook that because her reports had gone unheard, without written response, and were still unhandled, she was now going public. Tayler began receiving messages of hate and judgement nearly every hour on Facebook from fellow Scientologists about her improper way to handle things. People began trying to get her to basically shut up about the issues she was dealing with. Remini makes a good point and says, “Unlike Aaron (Bilheimer’s husband) Tayler was reaching out, [saying] ‘please, to my church, help me, you’re saying this is what you do, help me.’ She was doing the right things, and nobody cared.” Lauren states that Tayler was posting everything she possibly could because she was done. (s2e2)

Lauren states that at the end of October, she was very worried about Tayler. She was very thin due to a 7 month nervous breakdown, most of which happened May-August before the breakup, and that she did not intend to be that weight. During that nervous breakdown, she was continually offered auditing, according to Lauren, but only made Tayler worse. Rinder states that, “Scientology does not recognize depression as a mental illness. In fact, nothing that has ANYTHING to do with psychiatry is acceptable in Scientology. Anybody that has any problem, whatsoever, in Scientology is sent to an auditor; to have Scientology counseling. Therefore, anything that was troubling Tayler, will only be addressed by Scientologists, with Scientology.” Lauren states that Tayler had nowhere to go in order to receive real help. On November 30, 2013, Tayler wrote a long post essentially apologizing for being an asshole to her friends (the Scientology community). It is unknown why she ended up apologizing, but she created a new Facebook page where she did not post anything negative towards the church and was instead posting lots of pictures of herself. She applied to college, so Lauren felt like things were getting better for her, she believed everything was fine. But Lauren says that January rolled around and they found out that she had killed herself. Lauren began asking mutual friends of her and Tayler and she found out that Tayler had shot herself. Lauren was completely shocked because she thought things were getting better for Tayler. (S2E2)

After Tayler’s death, Lauren discovered a mutual friend had been communicating with Tayler via text messaging. Tayler had suffered from suicidal thoughts and had tried to commit suicide several times throughout her life. In the text messages, Tayler stated that she wanted to die before 2014, and asked her friend, “That’s not good, right?” She also stated that, “I’d rather die than feel this. I’ve felt this feeling since 12 years old when I joined the sea org. That’s right. Sept 1999.” (S2E2)

I was diagnosed at 12, the same age Tayler began feeling this way. This tells me that Tayler did not grow into depression, or develop it because of a specific situation like most people do. Tayler wasn’t born with it, but she might as well have been if she was feeling that way so early on. Clearly, her neurotransmitters were not firing the way they were designed to very early on. She and I are the kind of people who should likely try medication as a first step, because without it, your neurotransmitters will likely continue to misfire if they began to do so at such an early age.

Tayler also disclosed how Scientology was trying to cure her mental health issues through vitamins and auditing. Tayler stated that after the auditing she felt even worse, and had found out that she was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. But she was diagnosed by naturopathic doctors, the kind that don’t medicate. She stated that they had her buy supplements instead. She never got to see a regular doctor, and other doctors tried to handle her problems without mental health medication and instead do it with Scientology. Tayler would have ultimately been kicked out of the church if she stated to anyone that she wanted to go see a real doctor and receive real help. In doing so, her family would have disconnected from her, which is likely what kept her from doing so. However, on Tayler’s Facebook account, she posted something that read, “I am 99.9% sure I should be locked in a straight-jacket and padded cell and be studied by mental health therapists,” and “Death I am coming for you… Like a ghost, I will be gone! 01 January 2014 <3.” She was likely at the end of her rope when posting this and didn’t care who saw it. (S2E2)

Lauren states that Tayler actually wanted to die and that she thought it was a solution to stop all of her problems that she had been having her entire life and she was done. After Tayler’s death, her mother stated, “In the months before [Tayler’s] death, she received a complete medical and mental health care evaluation followed by mental health care treatment at a clinic staffed by naturopathic physicians, psychotherapists, psychiatric nurse practitioners, and acupuncturists. She further had in-depth mental and medical evaluations and testing at a university clinic. Additionally, [Tayler] saw her only personal physician twice in the year before she died. None of these people were Scientologists.” (S2E2)

Correct, none of them might not have been Scientologists, but they were all obviously naturopathic as her mother stated, therefore, Tayler received the evaluations that she needed, but she did not received the proper care following those evaluations because none of the doctors or physicians that she saw treated with medicine other than natural remedies.

Lauren stated that the Scientology part of her family, specifically her mom, for every time that Tayler did something and spoke out, her mom would distance herself from Tayler both emotionally and financially. Her mother posted on Facebook in the midst of Tayler speaking up and stated, “You may want to unfriend Tayler Tweed, my daughter. She is posting entheta comm about church members and an org. I’ve been trying and trying to handle. There is much more going on than this, but this is over the line for our group and she has been warned repeatedly to not be public. Her REAL upsets are not with the church, under it all. But she gets keyed in and does this. Best to distance yourself, is my thought. Please don’t comm with her about this or she will only get louder about it.” (S2E2)

It is common for family members to cut all off all contact when another family member leaves the church. So it is no surprise that her mother began to distance herself and ask their friends to do the same. Because in Scientology, you are not to communicate with anyone who has been disconnected from the church. When people are on the verge, family members will often do what Tayler’s mom did. Lauren states that Tayler’s family was very, very important to her. She loved her mom, so it was very tough on her. Lauren stated that with everything Tayler had been dealing with, with the church, she also had to deal with the constant back and forth, back and forth disconnection from her family; it was too much for her. Tayler was sleeping on friends’ couches during disconnection from her family, and her mom is known to have called those friends and according to Lauren, stated, “Tayler is in a supressive person kind of stage, she’s an enemy of the church, it’s not good for her for you to house her.” The last house she was able to stay at, was when she ended her life. Which made Lauren feel like she didn’t have anywhere else to go, all roads led to this. Lauren said that at Tayler’s funeral, Tayler’s mother stated that she was at peace with her daughter’s decision, a week after Tayler’s death.

Remini states, “The mental health profession should have an issue with Scientology promoting itself as the cure for mental illness. It is not a cure! It isn’t!” Lauren states that Tayler could have so easily have been helped. Which is absolutely and completely true, but Scientology would not allow it. Lauren has had 5 people in her life kill themselves, and 4 of them were Scientologists, including Tayler. At the conclusion of this episode Remini and A&E inserted the logo for the national suicide prevention lifeline, with the phone number. This is something that I include at the end of every single one of my articles because some of the things I talk about can be triggering, and even if it isn’t, some people reading them are currently feeling that way. (S2E2)

whyweprotest.wikia.com has a list of suicides related to or occurring directly within Scientology. I have yet to confirm whether or not this website is accurate. But from the ones who have committed suicide that I know of from other documentaries, they are all included in that list. I counted only 147 total on this list, but I highly doubt that is all of them. There is said to be many suspicious deaths of people associated to the Scientology church. Their suicides seemed suspicious to police and some believe that Scientology may have ordered their executions.

The Boston Herald published this on May 21, 1998:

“Former Scientologists had the highest rates of persistent fear, sleeplessness, suicidal and self-destructive tendancies, violent outbursts, hallucinations and delusions, compared to ex-members of other religious groups […] Conway and her colleague Jim Siegelman found in a University of Oregon Study.”

St. Petersburg Times published this on February 8, 1998”

“One witness, Christine Cleostrate, said she was forced by Mazier to stop psychiatric treatment and sign a letter saying the Scientology center in Lyon would not be responsible if she committed suicide.”

My point in typing this entire thing out, doing this research, and watching an hour long episode in order to pull direct quotes and statements, is to get people to understand that there are religions out there and among us in this world that do not allow their followers to receive mental health care or treatment. Mental health sufferers already feel as if they are to blame for their problems, they already feel as if they are worthless and not worth the help. And there are religions that some of these people are following that tell them just that by not allowing them to seek the care that they so desperately need. Jehovah’s Witnesses are the next most commonly known religion that does not allow its followers to receive treatment. A few months ago, I watched a series that People Magazine made strictly covering cults. They were cults I had never even heard of before, and several of them also did not allow their followers to receive mental health treatment. I have been sitting at this computer for hours and hours and quite frankly, I am tired, otherwise I would sit here and watch each one of them so that I can give you all the names of them. Ask me on another day and I would gladly do it for you.

I do hope that if there is anyone in Scientology reading this who was already or who is now currently questioning whether or not it is just for them to not be receiving treatment, that they will find the courage to leave, despite the consequences, and receive the help that they need. The longer religions like this are in practice, the more people we are going to continue to lose. I don’t know why watching Leah Remini interview these people is so close to my heart. I suppose because I have had my own struggles with Christianity and religion, and I can somehow relate to what and how these people are feeling. I do not like knowing there are people in this world who are getting brain washed and are suffering from mind control. I want to stop all of it, and end it once and for all. Because one way or another, mental health will always be tied in. I praise Remini and all the others for speaking out and calling out Scientology for what it really is. Heck, they are calling out other religions too. Remini did a special and interviewed former Jehovah’s Witnesses and they spoke about the striking similarities between their two former cults.

 

 If you or someone you know needs support right now, call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, or text START to 741-741

 

1.         http://forum.exscn.net/threads/scientologys-view-on-depression-suicide.43864/

2.         https://www.cs.cmu.edu/~dst.Library/Shelf/pignotti/

3.         https://www.scientology.org/faq/scientology-in-society/why-is-scientology-oppossed-to-psychiatric-abuses.html

4.         https://www.scientology.org/faq/scientology-and-dianetics-auditing/what-is-auditing.html

5.         https://scientology.org/faq/scientology-and-dianetics-auditing/is-it-okay-to-take-any-sort-of-drugs-when-you-are-in-scientology.html

If you or someone you know needs support right now, call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, or text START to 741-741

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